I don't make close online fandom "frienships" anymore. I don't have time to maintain them and memories of being burned badly the last few times I did it make me shy away from all that. There are one or two people I chat with outside of LJ once in a blue moon, but that's nowhere near the norm, I'm sure.

Still, I miss the intimate one-on-one connection. I miss the in-jokes and the gossip sometimes, even though, in retrospect, in-jokes and gossip have this way of turning into sekrit wank of the cruelest sort aimed at other fen/writers. Which is something I despise.

I know I seem aloof. But it's only because I've gained wisdom over the years and holding myself back is the wisest choice.

Even if it's not the most fun one.